I have a feeling that this school will be more relaxed than Palmerston North Boys High (that school is seriously like a mini military camp....all the boys get marched around, and there is a very VERY strict discipline system, also a high decile school meaning that the parents are a bit wealthier etc) but not as 'loose' as the last school I was at Freyberg. Low decile school, behaviour issues, individuality and student rights are at the top of the list...almost too much if you ask me! I'm hoping that FHS will be a happy medium. We'll see.
But who are we kidding? Am I looking forward to the 6 week placement? Well....looking forward to it being OVER. I enjoy teaching, and I've learned heaps while student teaching, but it's so incredibly exhausting, and I feel like I'm constantly being judged. By the other teachers, by the students, by the university staff. You walk into a class not knowing the students, not having their trust or respect, and you're expected to be perfect. Full of energy, inclusive of all students, perfect. Ha....yeah, right. Then just at the end of the 6 weeks when you feel like you've gained the students trust and respect (and you actually start 'teaching' instead of doing behaviour stuff the whole class period), it's time to go.
Did I also mention the late nights preparing lesson plans (b/c of course as a student teacher you're expected to make everything up from scratch...develop all your own resources), researching units I'm not familiar with (which I'm embarrased to say, is A LOT), and the fact that this is all unpaid work. I know, I know, this is what is to be expected of a teacher....but I"m just ready for my own class, where I can do things my way....oh, and get paid! Ha Ha.
Student teaching wouldn't be as bad if I didn't have my own 2 little students at home, and late nights that go along with that! So incredibly tiring.
I can not wait for the 6 weeks to be over. Then back to the university papers, and doing more research, more learning....then in Nov I'm finished. I've survived halfway through the programme, now I just need to survive the other half. This course has been really full on. I was warned that it would be, but it's so much more all consuming than I had imagined. I'm on my computer all day, every day doing all my online assignments, and weekly readings. There are no examinations - but about 2 dozen really really big assignments. Big as in 50 pages each!
So I've got one week before all the chaos begins again.